A New Way of Life

CW: 259.6 (hr - 33)   I woke up at 9:00a, felt no desire to actually get up and closed my eyes again.  Finally got up about 10:45a, weighed, showered, sat on the couch and went back to sleep.  Finally got dressed, started drinking my water with electrolytes.   (hr - 36)   Had my multi-vitamin.  Really rolling slowly today.  Started watching TV; I can't focus, so at least I can focus on TV.  Not hungry.  Miss eating.  Even stuff at the back of the cabinet looks good.  You know the crap you push all the way to the back because you have better, that stuff, looks good now.  I'm awake, but I don't feel motivated to do anything AT ALL.  I just heard the TV, I need to go vote, and I will...slowly.  I made a cup of coffee (black) hoping for a slight lift to start running errands. The rest of the day went well. One bout of loosy poops, but I haven't had any dizziness, weakness, or anything major....

Woke at 7am.  Didn't have time to weigh, sorry.  I was conscious this morning, but not involved.  It felt zen.  Not very hungry. 8:30a - (2) ACV 9:30a - (3) yeast pills; but then I had to have coffee.  BLACK...dear god it's disgusting. But it's helping to clear the fog a little.  I really need an alternative to the salt.  Blah! {quick amazon search} - so they do have salt pills and electrolytes.  Next time, I'll have to go that direction. The rest of Friday went slowly.  Another cup of black coffee.  Get home...(an energy boost).  Dishes made it into the dishwasher, towels folded, sheets washed and dried.  Reading...in bed by 9:30a. My dreams were vivid and food kept popping up.  I was slicing and eating a banana, walnuts.  I could feel the crunch and taste the sweetness.  I was on the floor telling someone, "I need to clean out the freezer."  I remembered eating a piece of cake from Thursday, and ...

Yesterday was a day of gastronomic debauchery.  A Little Debbie here, a small piece of cake  there...and a pint of Blue Bell Bride's Cake ice cream.  I am smart enough not to buy anything bigger than a pint even when I'm going slightly mad.  It's like my mind told me your going on a water fast, enjoy before you do.  Which in itself actually puts me back a few steps. Sugar at night, hungry in the morning.  Today I'm exhausted and I don't get to blame the 'going without food' excuse.  I'm just flat out tired. _________________________________________________________________________________ CW: 265.2 8:30a - (2) ACV pills 9:30a - (1) multi-vitamin; (3) nutritional yeast pills 9:40a - (uh oh...just heard my stomach...somebody knows somethings up) 10:30a - I'll have my 1/4 tsp of salt and my 12 oz of electrolytes.  Being that it's sweet (from Stevia) I'm going to look forward to those twice a day. {Note to self: DO NOT TAKE THE SALT...

Keto Summary (so far) : Looking back through my own pages I am so excited that I made mention of my Keto program.  And it has truly been a success.  Since January I have lost 45 lbs, dropped 2 clothes sizes.  It no longer hurts to walk the 3 feet to the bathroom anymore. I haven't felt all this supposed energy that is supposed to come.  It's been great buying new clothes and hearing people say wow you look great! I know this is the program that I can do for the rest of my life.  Yes there are some high (super high) carbs mixed in.  But I have way more good days than bad and the scale is still inching its way down.  [Pun] But I have been reading and watching a lot of stuff on line.  And I feel adventurous enough to try a water fast.  Only a few people will be in the know.  Or anyone who stumbles across this blog.  But it's almost more of a personal challenge than anything. So the fun begins on Thursday, October 10th. (10-1...

Once a month blogs.  That's about what I can manage these days. So May is what I would call a 'wash' month.  That's probably the month that for most people they would want to give up...'it's not working, so I'm just going to eat what I want.' And that is exactly what you shouldn't do. When your body stops losing; you need to stop for a moment and think: Am I letting a few more carbs slide back in? Am I having a hard time getting back to my low carb eating? Is there a part of my regimen that I (dread, find difficult to maintain, hate with a purple passion and makes me feel like I am banging my head against a brick veneer wall???)...what can I do to change this and still be low carb? Review H.A.L.T - am I hungry, angry, lonely, tired...and are one of these things effecting me enough to make my loss slow down or stop. Am I getting enough water???? Maybe you are doing everything right, ok...then perhaps your body has taken over and is tryin...

May 8, 2019 - It was interesting looking back at the other programs that 'didn't work.' Now, I know why... On January 1, 2019; I started Keto (the lazy one).  I gave myself the month of January to (empty cabinets - unopened/unexpired food went to the food bank, perishable food went to friends, expired food the trash).  One month 'transition' means that the Irish Chocolate my friend sent for Christmas went to my mouth with no guilt. At the same time everything coming into the house had to be "Keto Approved."  And I work to improve the process (which is a dynamic process) and pay close attention to my body.  Let me explain... I have lost roughly 30lbs in 4 months and 1 week.  I pick foods that are between 2-10 grams per serving.  I do not count calories.  But no food is 'forbidden'.  I will say that after getting into ketosis I notice my cravings are almost gone (until THAT time of month) and I don't 'jones for' the higher carb fo...

Current weight:  295.8 Loss to date:  6.2 lbs I haven't eaten anything at this point, that I wouldn't eat again.  A few breakfast items I'll make sure I order extra of.  Still...mostly uneventful week. The weather's been up and down. 30 minute walk at lunch unless the weather turns bad.  Today was nice (cold) but nice.  But after the walk I felt kind of tired.  I didn't really get my energy back. I seeming to be falling short in three categories: Not eating enough veggies. Not getting enough water. Not working out after work. Walking at lunch is just 'meditative' it's not about working out hard.  I still want to train to run, but it just seems like I haven't had my energy for awhile.  

So, I got my Nutrisystem box on Saturday after work.  I found out that I can log in and have them hold it at the FedEx stop.  Which is perfect for me, because that means I can go on Saturday or Sunday and pick it up, and I don't have the chance of the neighbors deciding they want my box.  I really did not like the idea of delivery/drop at my door. I cleared my cabinets, which wasn't hard since I had cleared them before the liquid diet.  And I separated my food out.  I decided I wasn't going to start until Monday, that is of course when many famous dieters start their "new day."  Monday is like the New Years day of the week.  It's that day when you can have a fresh start.  I had my little (and by little, I mean li-tt-le) muffin.  Ok, pretty good, I grabbed up my stuff for lunch, a couple of snacks, a cup for ice water, and off I went.  It really has been uneventful.  The weather has been blah, and the cold has been bugging me....

Guilt kept me from posting on Monday, and Tuesday, but I woke up this morning after a little soul searching and decided.  Things have got to change!  But if there is one thing I have learned.  I cannot be left to my own devices to make the changes.  So this morning I got on line and ordered "Nutrisystem."  Here's why: 1. I have been on it before and had fantastic results .  I went on the program in 2008 and in the five months that I was on the program I lost 35-40 lbs. Didn't feel deprived.  What went wrong?  I moved to New Orleans where a good restaurant is literally a stones throw from anywhere. Guess what? I'm not living in New Orleans, and that should make it a little easier on me.  2. The cost of Nutrisystem is going to be the same as my current food bill .  And each month the cost drops a little, so yeah for me.  Plus since I signed up today, I got an extra $20 knocked off the bill.  3. C...

It's a good news/bad news kind of day. Well, good news - Lost 13.5 pounds! Yeah. Bad news - got kicked off the program. :( Yeah, quite a shocker for me too, especially since I only had to lose a required 4 lbs. But they are sticklers for adhering to only the liquid diet (no alterations). People I assure you if you are adhering to a 1,000 calories - your ass better be losing more than 4 lbs. (in 2 weeks) or you are lying. Which brings me to what got me kicked off the program. You have to keep a food diary of everything you consume. Please understand, I have always been a pretty honest person and I was taught to accept my consequences. Let's back track just a little more, shall we. Sunday morning I had a breakdown. Crying. Feeling generally crappy. And then wiped the tears and began my day. But in the back of my mind I knew there was a crack. It was going to happen today. The rest of my day was filled with coffee and shakes (which were getting considerably ...

Today, here...I write my culinary confession.  I did not stray.  I may have wanted to on more than one occasion, but I didn't.  I was not feeling well on Friday, that was the day when I actually didn't want to eat at all.  I had to force the shakes down.  Sunday was probably the hardest.  With only 3.5 hours sleep, as soon as the Saint's game started.  The commercials were so intense.  Subway, Sonic, Chill's...evil. Next Monday is my 7:30 am appointment.  Weigh-in, blood, and measure me like a thanksgiving turkey. So what have I learned this week; I am weaker when I don't get enough sleep. I am weaker when it's "that time." Lunch time walks are a way to clear the head. I prefer my shakes shaken, not blended. I prefer Chocolate with peppermint, (the soup - doctored up with dried scallops, dried chives, and 1/4 tsp of bacon salt - yes, dear heaven - there is something in the world called "bacon salt"), then Vanilla with coconut, Stra...

Unusual day.  I was scheduled for a Treadmill Myocardial Perfusion Stress Test; let me elaborate.  I was hooked up to an IV, shot up with radioactive isotopes (yeah), made to wait 45 minutes, laid out on a bed that looked kind of like an MRI, 12 minutes for pictures to watch my little isotopes running around.  Then head over to the treadmill where I had to keep my target heart rate up for six minutes (wheezing, panting, and wishing for Armageddon) they shoot you up with more isotopes while your moving and make you go one more minutes. Done, you go back to the waiting room (at this point I finally get my "breakfast"), I mix two packages of chocolate with water and coconut flavoring and a sprinkle of Stevia (ok, not bad).  After another 45 minutes I head back to the table and get 12 more minutes of pictures.  All done, remove IV, walk me to the door.  Total time - 4 hours. (sigh) The rest of the day was filled with moments of "oh yeah you can't have that"...

October 31, 2013 On Friday, November 1st at 6:30 am, I made my way to Pennington Biomedical Research Center.  It was dark as I arrived. I signed in and made my way to the waiting room.  At 7:07 (never has a medical facility been so timely) I made my way to one of the back screening rooms.  The next four and a half hours consisted of being weighed (314.8 lbs, it looked better in kg.), measure, physical exams from head to toe, mental evaluations, lab work, (pee and blood), verbal question, after verbal question, and a walk from one side of a hall way to the other (10 laps around the cones).    I was sent home with 5 boxes of liquid diet (2-chocolate, 1-vanilla, 1-strawberry, and 1-potato soup) that's a total of two weeks, the exact amount of time until my next appointment (EXPLICIT instructions).  DO NOT start the diet before I am contacted by PBRC.  DO NOT consume more or less than 5 packets a day.  And I MUST keep a food journal of ev...